Voice

It was a hassle getting onto this stupid thing. But I need to speak.

I've realized that all of our creation pales in comparison to God's creations.
We would much rather look at lush gardens, breath-taking ocean views, or mighty mountains than bridges, skyscrapers, or houses.

We have this innate desire in our hearts to admire what God has created and God has had a direct influence in.

But I've also realized that we have a tendency to move away from God's influence in our lives. Possibly because we're scared..... maybe because it forces us to let him drive and direct OUR lives.

I've realized that God knows us better than we do. I haven't counted the hairs on my head anytime recently and I don't know why I feel certain ways. He knows. He has known. And He wants to share that compilation of feedback. But how often do we disregard His call?

Sometimes, I feel like whatever I'm doing at that particular moment is diminishing the power of God's voice, forcing Him to be silenced and disappear. It is never whether He's actually there but it's about whether He's talking. He loves to talk. I'm sure if I knew the things that He did, I would talk a lot.

I picture a know-it-all being silenced in the classroom where everyone else is struggling and yet the teacher is insisting for an answer. The child would blow up! And I wish God would just blow up sometimes. Let us know that He's pretty frustrated about our muting of His omniscient voice. Maybe then we would try to discern His voice and our faith would grow.

Hearing the voice of God sounds strange. It's never His voice. It's only the direction that He takes me and the positive result that comes with it that allows me to decide that He is indeed speaking. And a lot of the results have to come with an open mind. I mean sometime can totally go off the charts and smack you in the face. And this can discourage you or you can look for the beauty that lies within that chaos. So many times were so consumed with what God didn't show us that we often overlook what God did show us. And that leaves us believing that God hasn't spoken and doubt starts to emerge.

I really believe that a relationship with God is like a launch pad. All this preparation to make the rocket and stuff comes with little progress. The rocket hasn't launched yet and we had to do ALL THIS? But once it does launch, the sky is the limit.... (more than the sky?) All this time we're struggling to get off the ground, beyond the mundane routines of the spiritual walk. But once a movement in the heart is created, it's an exponential growth towards the Father. So please hold fast and move forward.

I think one thing that really discourages people is the waiting. The hour is usually late and fear starts to settle. And once something does pop up, you wonder "was that me making up something because of desperation or was that really God?"
But don't we have time to wait? We spend our lives consumed in busy work that gives us a sense of usefulness and worth and neglect the time to stop and enjoy the senses that God has provided. If you really want direction, a purpose, or just confirmation, waiting is necessary. You should desire it.

God, I want to discern Your voice over all things. To really know that it is You requires faith that is not of me but of You. Won't you help me open my ears and my eyes to Your will? Help me live righteously so that I may come face to face with You. And when You do speak, let it not be fear but courage that drives my soul. Let me act upon Your call instantly, never forgetting that You require immediate action. I desire to hear You more. I want to ask You fervently for the small things and to acknowledge Your calls for the larger things. You are the final judge and the final decision. Nothing in my life happens without You. And help this relationship become more faithful, more powerful, and more loving as Your voice becomes a necessity in my life. So thank You that You'd send Your son, Jesus, to create this new covenant where I can now have a personal relationship with You.

In Jesus Name I Pray, Amen.


Ten Things I think I think:

1.) I'm digging spiritual warfare. I love battling and winning :)

2.) The pastor job description should be: the battle for souls and damage control.

3.) Individuals need to move for the church to move.

4.) Because I don't necessarily believe in myself whole-heartedly yet, the hardest thing to do is believe that everything will be okay, even if I don't do my part.

5.) How light is the burden that is light?

6.) God wants me to create something very beautiful in Ceramics....

7.) If there is a 5'3-5'4 girl that is not pale, pretty, bold, courageous, ambitious, hungry, playful and desires for ministry, PRAY THAT I'LL MEET YOU SOME DAY.... T_T

8.) This number looks like a happy face with a mole

9.) The enemy knows that I'm its enemy.

10.) Resistance is futile, just let God take control.