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It's His kindness that brings us to repentance. It's the rainbow in the sky after a night of heavy rainfall or the clearing of the clouds in ominous times.

It's our playing with fire, the curiosity that states that God isn't as great as He's made out to be.

There is always a longing in our hearts for more, if we seek it in Him, our fruits will be great.

I was the first to spit on Your face, saying that you weren't good enough for me. Tasting all things, seeing everything, I've realized what you gave me. Feeling alone, I ran back with nothing left, a fraction of my former self. But still you loved, still you opened up Your arms for me.

Now I only long to see the beauty of Your face.


I want to be liberated from my desire to conform to societies view.











There is a spiritual war going on; this isn't for the weak or the feeble-minded but rather for the Holy Spirit to fight for us. It's not a war we can win nor a battle that is of our own. God is victorious and we must fight thru Him. It's getting exciting. I can see the enemy. I'm starting to see the traps. Oh how deceitful and opportunistic. But it's also very weak. Weak against those that stand with the Lord. Claim victory and take what is ours! There are souls to claim!


How about the Book of Life. Jaeson Ma received a prophecy when His sister came and told him that his Book of Life was huge, filled with names of the many souls he saved. Oh how great would that be? If not the money of the world, the fame or glory, nor the power, surely the Book of Life in heaven. Surely that is one thing to motivate, to humble, and to bring conviction to ourselves in Christ Jesus.





I was asking God today for something our ministry can wholeheartedly seek in service and commitment. He told me "Forgiveness Ministry".... What does that mean? Maybe it was me or maybe it was Him. But I'll sit here and chew on that and pray that God will continue to affirm or bring new light into our Youth Group. Everyone who reads this blog, please also pray for an answer and the voice of God to audibly speak into your life.



We are not perfect beings, but we also have the hardest time accepting that and therefore have the hardest time forgiving ourselves of the sins of this world. We have fallen and God understands that. To that degree, He saves us continually through calvary and through the blood of Jesus. We don't understand and we don't forgive ourselves. So because of that, Jesus' blood is prevented from covering all your multitudes of sin. If only we can humble ourselves to the point of no return.




God is completely understanding. Knowing that the Israelites were in a state of change, He gives specific laws to them so that they can not think and just do. The law is something that is righteous: "eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth" and every other law follows that similar criteria.

But that's not the God that we know. We believe in a God that excuses disobedience with love; He's not a rational God at all. He's clothed in love. Love was never rational. Jesus embodies that completely. The law is righteous but love is crazy. He says to turn our cheek and to stop from retaliation and retribution. Revenge is something that God tells us to abstain from. Mercy and grace exemplify this notion that God, through Jesus, reveals His true form of goodness. And wouldn't He know? 1/3 of His beloved angels, led by Lucifer, decide to steal God's glory even though love is so abundant. His beloved creation of Adam and Eve decide to become one with God, who so willingly provides all the needs and desires of their heart. Now as His beloved creation, we fall into the pre-destined pit of sin; Many deny Him, many crucified Him, many oppose Him. Wouldn't you believe that we deserve this "eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth" concept? His broken heart after so many things that He has created but yet can't follow His true example of love. Maybe that's why He decided to do this righteous thing. He was upset, He was mad. But maybe... just maybe... He knew all along that the only thing that was truly in His heart was mercy... unconditional, "I'll die for you" mercy. The kind of grace that only God is willing to humble himself to express. Maybe that's the true Him... maybe He's not really a just God more than He is a loving one. He will keep us accountable for our sins.. but if we loved Him wholeheartedly... aren't we all allowed eternity to spend with Him?