Failure

The world will fail you. Isn't that a freaking surprise...... So today I was looking at the back of the A Collision CD by David Crowder. And behind it, it said "When our depravity meets His divinity it is a beautiful collision". I was like wow that is so cool. But you know what? THE CHURCH HAS FALLEN from that beautiful collision. It isn't about how our depravity is saved anymore. Somehow His living salvation is less than it was supposed to be. Who are we to place a value on Christ's sacrifice. And here we are saying were building up the church, loving and serving Him and yet settling for a love that isn't quite what Jesus was looking for when He died on the cross.
I'm not trying to stereotype us but aren't 99% of Christians living in a life where they are just secular with a "Christian" label on it? Or maybe were just Christians when we feel like it or when "He's meeting with us". Much like if your a football player, you're not one when you feel like running or hitting or lifting weights. You live that lifestyle;You make your life resemble what that certain lifestyle stands for. SAME THING for Christians. If we are to be a generation of people who want to change the church and bring revival which I think this is certainly the generation, WE HAVE TO LEAVE THE FREAKING WORLD!

The world and its depravity has stripped the beauty of everything that was supposed to be beautiful. Marriage, the church, family, etc. You name it, its broken. SOOOO in a broken world with corruption lying on the side of the road shouldn't we just be clinging on to Jesus? Aren't we the most indebted people ever created? If Christians aren't going to start living for Jesus, WHO WILL?!?!?

I just came back from the most testosterone filled scene I've been in for awhile now. And quite frankly, I was disgusted. I was disgusted to the point of wanting to punch a wall. Because relationships get complicated and even in the mist of God's people, we fail and we compromise our integrity. I'm sick of this. I honestly am so pissed at what the world has made of the once beautiful creation that I hate.... I HATE living like what I am. God, PLEASE never let me go back. And I'm starting to wonder if God looks down everyday at the close to 7 billion people and just wants to pull his HOLY HAIR out because we just complain about the pettiest things and because we complicate things that shouldn't be complicated.

Ray put up a good point. Christian relationships are complicated especially with the opposite sex. And quite frankly, I was skeptical but now I'm sure. Yes they are. They're should be so much beauty in it but guess what? our brokenness comes into effect and all our sins, doubts, lies, insecurities, yadyadayada destroy God's creation. But you know what? I still think God lives through that. He still prevails. He is strong when we are weak. We say were focused on Him when we are not. We say that we can't hear Him while He is screaming. Sorry people but I honestly am frustrated that Jesus has become something for our convenience and for our agendas.

"Sorry Jesus but I have a problem that is too big for you"
or
"Sorry Jesus but I know that I just said I'll love you for ever but right now, I'm in a complicated relational mess that is quite frankly, more important than you"

ARE YOU SERIOUS? WHAT IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN A RELATIONSHIP THAT NEVER FAILS OR NEVER QUITS OR IS WITH YOU EVERY SECOND, EVERY MINUTE, EVERY HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If we're all scared about losing our parents, grandparents, girlfriends, boyfriends, friends, we shouldn't be. Because they'll honestly die and go to heaven or their respective places. They'll hate you sometimes or they'll get mad. They might even divorce you or hate you forever or backstab you. BUT GUESS WHAT? GOD WON'T. And if you have something to cry about or get scared of it is this: God can leave you any moment. He can throw you aside. The love that will take care of you even after you had disregarded Him and made Him your secondary priority once again can be gone in one blinding moment. That is what you should be scared of. The complete love of the world that we so desperately yearn for and need to sustain our lives can be no more. And often times we settle for tangible but yet fleeting, temporary things and the stripping of all the wealth and fame and power and lust, etc cannot be juxtaposed with the stripping of God's love from you.

But here is the beauty.... He won't. More like He can't. He just loves you that freaking much. And at the end of the day, can you ask yourself, AM I DESERVING OF THAT LOVE?
NO? Than why not...? Where did I go wrong and where do I have to change?

Revelations says that God will spit out the lukewarm. And even those that periodically have qt's and have daily devotionals or have prayers but fail to even put up a fight against their brokeness is included. I'm included.

Revelations 2:4-5
But I have this against you, that you have left your first love. Therefore remember from where you have fallen, and repent and do the deeds you did at first; OR ELSE I AM COMING TO YOU AND WILL REMOVE YOUR LAMPSTAND OUT OF ITS PLACE- unless you repent.

The church is run by a bunch of lukewarmers instead of people on fire for God. And this is where the church collapses because we can't comprehend the language of holiness that God tries to speak into our collective ministries because we are dwelling in our sins and so we turn blind and deaf to God's direct voice. Sorry, I'm being cynical but the church has to change and some eyes have to be opened. I'm bitter towards the church. It's great that we stand for Jesus but are we doing an accurate representation of Him? Most likely not. And here we are completely content with it.... Why isn't someone standing up and speaking about the UGH-ness of the church. Why aren't we so dissatisfied with our own contentment that we scream out in frustration?

Jesus is appealing to everyone: rich, white, black, poor, fat, skinny, asian, EVERYONE!
But when His divinity meshes with our brokenness that represents the church, it becomes something so skewed and deformed, we don't even know if its Jesus anymore.

When Jesus says lose your life to find it, he means it literally. You have to leave EVERYTHING to get there. Sorry past life, your precisely that, the PAST life. So the world that we have dwelled in and we have come to know and enjoy we have to give it the biggest kick in the rear and start running towards Jesus. It couldn't be more complicated than that.


But even while I mention the stupidness, the brokenness, the depravity, the lousiness, the nastiness, the badness of God's people, in the end, all I have to say is this to end my long rant.

Still, God loves us.

Let that sink in. You probably didn't notice because He was 2nd in your life, maybe even 3rd. But when we notice the extent of all that we did and are yet to do, how can we forget?



DEVIL I WILL OVERCOME YOU. YOU DON'T HAVE AUTHORITY OVER ME. I HONESTLY HATE THE FACT THAT I LIVE IN A WORLD THAT IS FULL OF GODLESSNESS. I AM FUELED WITH RAGE AGAINST SIN TO PROVE TO THE WORLD THAT GOODNESS DOES EXIST. AND EVERYONE CAN DO IT WITH THE INDEBTEDNESS WE FEEL TOWARDS JESUS. I WILL OVERCOME LUST, GREED, PRIDE, JEALOUSY, ANGER, LAZINESS all in the NAME OF JESUS because otherwise, I have demoted His sacrified; gave it a value; made it my convenience.

I'm pissed. Honestly pissed. I'm living with a grudge against satan now. I will bring light into His people. I won't be satisfied until I do.


PEOPLE! LIVE LIKE A PEOPLE REDEEMED!


In my precious lover, redeemer, healer's name I pray AMEN......