Loneliness, Salvation, ETC

Christians are lonely people. This probably stems from the fact that we want to make God our soul provider, stripping ourselves of worldly practices and things. Sex, drugs, fame etc are all disregarded as we become our new selves. However, because our whole lives, we were living for temporary things, we still have a piece of our heart that is attached to the world. And this disconnection which is not fully done often hinders our relationship with God. Now we don't have two things fully but rather we are dwelling in the middle where neither really satisfies. So loneliness starts to creep in and sin starts to emerge as we long for attention and love.

So as Christians, its not that God can't fully satisfy but rather that we haven't given ourselves completely to the Lord. So its our lacking state of being that hinders us from our wholeness with God. And often times, we stay in the medium where its never too good to be with the Lord because its not completely satisfying. And our minds and hearts that have been so accustomed to sin look into the sinful nature for instant gratification. But as Christians, we have already embarked on the first step of self-denial. We have accepted that God's grace through Jesus Christ has saved us. So why is it that we stop half-way almost like a piece of crap that is almost out of the butthole but instead decides to stay in. It would be easier to just release ourselves completely but now because we have come out halfway and are stuck, we are causing more pain to ourselves. So fully engage yourself with the Lord and present yourself as a whole offering to God and only then can you feel the promises of the Lord completely.

Its really sad to see how human beings all settle for less. And we often settle for things that hurt us in the long run but in the short term is satisfying. We've all become masochist as we inflict long-term pains on ourselves. And many of us would not condone that type of abuse towards one's own body but we all seem to engage in it through our spiritual sense. Look, we all know that sin disturbs relationships whether between people or God. Sin corrodes the mind and the heart and ultimately lead to death. We have been warned against sin by Jesus and he realized that we can't handle it quite like he could so he died for it. So Jesus knew that He was dealing with masochist so he died on the cross, and because He was God and could have stopped the pain, he pretty much inflicted pain on himself to prevent us from having to feel the full effect of our masochist ways. Honestly, this is interesting because masochist is disgusting but yes we do that to our spiritual bodies on a consistent basic.

Start living like the redeemed people! We don't need things to satisfy us. We only need Jesus. He speaks for us. He loves us. He died for us. But if that's all head knowledge, that sucks. Because I've been reading Luke and he talks about how the door to heaven is narrow. And I know that if we just simply believe that Jesus died for us and we are redeemed than we are saved. But I also believe that "faith without works is dead". And I attribute works with good deeds or the abstinence of sin. Because think about it. If you really believe that someone loves you to the point of death, you would act upon that person's wishes, in this case to be holy or blameless. And regarding our humanly relationships, we often portray our love with actions not simply by saying we love them or thinking that we do. So how much more should those actions be magnified towards God? I was thinking this: It says that where we put in our money is where our heart is. But also, twisting this around, I think that as we show that we can abstain from sin, that shows how deeply in love we are with him. And I know that the bible says that sins are equivalent to one another so a liar is judged the same as a adulterer. But in terms of what we can overcome, sins are different. Cursing is definitely easier to overcome than committing sexual sins like pornography once you fall into it. So I was pondering on the idea that if we are still struggling with our cursing and stuff, we really don't love God all that much. Because after all, part of loving him takes sacrifices. And that, I believe, is a small sacrifice for all the love He provides. And because you don't love Him all that much, I don't really think you could enter heaven's gates. I'm starting to wonder about the salvation of a lot of people in general. I think that a majority of church goers are dwelling on the thin line and are in more trouble than they think they are. You don't get into heaven by going to church. You gotta love Him and looking around at the world and the brokenness of the church in general, I'm not seeing too much of that. And it sucks that many times, I'm tripping and not contributing to the well-being of the church and showing through actions that I truly love God. Our churches have become entangled with our secular selves and we have struggled to free ourselves. It sucks but I think it all starts with individual cords. There's a mess of guitar cords or game controllers and the wires that are tangled. You can't just get rid of it all at once. But you pick one and you start unraveling it and you repeat this until its all neat again. In this sense, we have to pick ourselves up. We can't possibly think that we can help other people become entangled without undoing ourselves first. So the church needs people, maybe even just a few that are truly going to become untangled. Like REALLY untangled. Because if just a few people are not restricted whatsoever, they can help other people and eventually the mess becomes undone exponentially. So the progress of the church will start small but it has to start somewhere and eventually it will pick up and move and impact and change. So who's willing to do this with me? Who's tired of the church's downfall and its lack of representation of God's unfailing love? Who's willing to make the true effort of self-denial and sacrifice to the point of no resistance and to pursue the untangling job that is at hand? Because we need a few, we need devoted people because right now, we just have people who are in the middle and that is highly ineffective. It has to be all or nothing. So who's with me?